Preparations for the future, enjoying the now

Went to SF yesterday to talk to James Parr, an officer in IE Singapore. I'm trying to get my bond for the government transferred to IE Singapore. They are a statutory board for the government and what they do is really in line with what I want to do too, which is being in touch with the trade and industry development around the world and helping Singapore companies internationalise. It's the direct opposite of the Economic Development Board of Singapore (EDB), which tries to bring companies to Singapore. As a country, we're weaker in expansion abroad, and that's what I want to do. Also, IE Singapore has lots of overseas offices, which I really want to be part of. I'm confident I'm much better out dealing with the experiences overseas rather than in Singapore. The people here are much more interesting too. I'm sure the other scholars are better at dealing with the Singaporean side than I am, but I know I'm better dealing with here than most of them. I'm trying hard to get back here, so we'll see. Cross my fingers and hope for the best.

Met up with Alicia yesterday too. Took her for dinner at Bucks Restaurant at Woodside. We then went up to Skyline Blvd to see the sunset. She's always been really fun to talk to. We were talking about how our parents didn't understand us, that we were not the same breed of people that grew up in our respective areas. Also about how our parents keep wanting to keep tabs on us, etc. We also talked about her wanting to go to the East Coast to see the sunrise over water, because she's been seeing a lot of sunsets over the California coast. This was what I was saying too, that I wanted to see sunrise over water, because it's the start of the day. Favorite part? She said that if I needed to get back into the country, she'll marry me to help me get a citizenship. I know it's just a joke and she doesn't take marriage too seriously, but it's really sweet to hear that. It's really nice to see her again, and we'll be hanging out more on Tuesday.

Today, it was lunch with Tomas at Apple, and dinner with Meg and Dave at California Pizza Kitchen. Seeing all my friends again before I leave is so cool. I know it'll be sometime before I see them again, but I know they are all rooting for me in life, and I'm rooting for them too. Someday, we'll all be joyful in our respective lives and can meet again to catch up with each other.

Yet at the same time, I'm still frustrated over another friend. She's not returning my IMs, or my calls. She just doesn't seem to want to talk to me at all. I do want to wrap things up, but it's like she's avoiding me like the plague. I'm really sad that even with the times that we had together, she still doesn't seem to care, or bother. Why is it this way? I'm amazed that it's possible for that to happen, that people can come together and then one of them can forget that the other person ever existed in your life. It hurts a lot, knowing that I care deeply about her, but she seems to be willing to just let it fly by, or just ignore it until it goes away. I really want to know what she's thinking about this. I need to say my goodbye to her, and tie things up, or it'll be something that will stay entrenched in me for a long time. I care too much about her to just walk away without seeing her again. It's the last thing I have to do before I leave.